Told you we all shouldn't be happy too early because shit happens, especially when you get shitty lecturer, trying to be funny, on the submission day telling you to re-do. WHATTHEFLYINGFUCK. -overused the word fuck i'm seeing the change in myself too- school makes me bloody upset, raging at stupid lecturer like her, stressing over all the submissions and grades... you can't blame me unless you feel the stress i feel for.
Deprived of sleep for the entire 9 days or so? Grabbing as little as 2.5hours of sleep and then preparing for an entire of day to sew, only to get screwed by the disorganized lecturer on the day of submission.
tell me who's the funny one.
Ruined my entire day, and it's one of the times when i'm supposed to be happy after submissions but i'm not.
Braving the rain, flagging for cab because i was bloody late for work. Was supposed to be at work at 2pm, dragged till 5.30 and i'm still late, reached at 7pm and head out for ladies night.
I really feel life is like a joke, taking over all my happiness. I don't feel happy at all, at any point of time i feel blessed, something will jinx back at me.
Is that how human are made out to?
To be deprived of love and happiness?
To have a world filled with sadness and grief?
I hate it.
on a side note,
ladies night was meh.
I honestly don't fancy night life and i prefer sleeping, given the fact that i slept less than a total of 24 hours in the span of 9 days?
Drank abit and the giddiness struck me.
not cool.
Only excited for Christmas now and if anything shitty happens,
then blame my shitty life.
because everything now is shitty. no faith, i don't believe in anything because everything will turn out shitty.
x
Edit//
watching project runway instead of sleeping, really slapped me into reality, letting me know how harsh the fashion world is.
It drops my confident level bit by bit every time i see how harsh one critic is and i know i'm not someone that can hold back tears especially super negative comments.
oh what have i got myself into.
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